THE GOLDEN CAGE OF GOOGLE
Ok ok, it wasn't that bad at all. I did enjoy working in Google. There were loads of perks, interesting people, amazing salary, great clients. I was lucky to work with such brands like, Johnson & Johnson, Chanel, LVMH, Beiersdorf, etc. I have learned a lot…but I was constantly exhausted because of regular overtime, quarterly ratings, and critics of some male colleagues.
That's probably when my passion towards women empowering had started. I had a male colleague who was constantly letting me and another girl down. How many tears were spilled because of him! Interestingly, he got promoted and we weren't. I saw a lot of behaviours like this which were frustrating. I saw a lot of talented girls who were really struggling to stand out against guys like the one I have described you.
What I have also learned during this period is that not every manager is a great manager. Back then I just didn't know that. I thought it was me who was not good enough. But the reality was that I was pushed to do what I was not good add, numbers and analytics. My only fault was not being aware that it is up to me choose what I want to do, to stand my grounds, to do what I like doing instead of being lousy at what I can't and don't like doing.
Of course such an approach can cause you a lot of troubles (especially, in the environments where the focus is not employees but quick benefit) but in the end, it will always bring you to better places.
After 4 years in Google I started feeling trapped. I had anxiety, insomnia, burn-outs, low energy and no free time to understand who I really am. Basically, in all terms, I was a Googler: I ate in Google, lived in Google, lived by Google, went to a gym in Google, hanged out with Googlers, travelled with Googlers. It was too much. We were so brainwashed by Google that we even thought that there is no life outside of Google. Yes yes, don't laugh! When I was leaving, Googlers were widening their eyes and asking, "Where are you going?! There is no a better place than Google. There is no life out there." Hahaha, how wrong they were.
Anyway, my constant passion for learning and discovering was calling me, I couldn't betray it. I wanted to learn marketing as a whole instead of just selling and optimizing Adwords campaigns. And even though Google was brainwashing us that Google equals marketing, I knew there was much more out there.
Back then I was already dating my Belgian boyfriend for a year and have taken a decision to make a leap from rainy Ireland to sunny Belgium. Since Ireland was the 7th country I lived in, I had no problem changing one more country.